Monday, March 5, 2012
I was thinking how quickly this winter has gone for me. The weather has been very mild and with a new part time job I have been quite busy. There are only a few days left of this winter and I am reminded of the story of Demeter and her daughter Persephone! I am reminded of how much Demeter resembles what all Mother's go through as their children move along their own journey. I have a son who suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder and has battled with depression since Middle School. He is now 30 and continues to struggle. Being his mom has always been like experiencing the seasons sometimes all at one time! And so, I rediscovered a piece I had written in honor of Demeter a year or so back and would like to share it with you all now. I hope it speaks to you, whether you have a child or not. We are all mothers to someone! Blessed be!
Ah beautiful Demeter
Mother of the Triune Goddess!
You are the example of motherhood we can look to.
You know what it is like to lose a child.
We know what it is like to watch a child die.
-die to who they are
-die to addictions
-die to grief
-die to persecution and bullying
We know what it is like to watch out child be dragged into the underworld.
And we search, oh Demeter, we search as you did
And our hearts grow cold and we see the world as frigid and icy and dark.
And we are lost not knowing which way to search; not knowing how to let go; not knowing how to trust that our child will return; not knowing how to help.
And our lives and everything around us dies the death we so want for ourselves for we cannot go on knowing that our child is in this dark, unforgiving place.
And we keep searching, knowing that when this child emerges from the darkness we will be there to rejoice and to wrap them in our arms.
We will then see the world turn into rainbows and blossoms and warmth and full of hope and love and forgiveness.
We will walk with this child in the beauty of the day and night knowing that at any time this child may reject our offer of spring and summer and choose once again the autumn and winter for their lives.
The cycle continues and continues for that is the plight of being Mother. We can never ever fully let go and let be.
We will always search for ways to bring the warmth of summer to the very lives of ones who don’t want any part of it.
Mother of the Triune Goddess.
May we keep the faith that you kept during times of sorrow.
May we know how to wait at the opening of the cave, trusting upon trust that our child will come running to us for the warmth of our heart and soul!
May we delight in the spring and summer of that time and know how to let go and let be when the autumn and winter take their turn!