I found myself tossing and turning during the night. I got up and opened more windows; I took off more covers and then even changed into a lighter pajama top. I thought I was just having problems adjusting to the warmer nights. And as I began to fall back to sleep I heard Her Whisper.
Now, I must admit that I have heard Her Whisper to me when She is Full and bright, but She is now Waning and is only half visible so I tried my best to ignore the Whispers and go back to sleep. I had to get up and go to work for goodness sakes. I didn't have time to really discover why I was so uncomfortable in the bed.
Finally I got up and went out on the balcony. And there She was! In all Her Waning Glory! She was there in the middle of the sky shining as brightly as if She were Full, but She was only partially visible. And I stood there, realizing through sleepy eyes that She was Shining so Brightly that I couldn't see any stars. It was a crisp and clear night and Waning Moon Goddess overshadowed even the brightest Stars!
I stood and honored Her, took a picture and then went back to bed continuing to toss and turn until the alarm went off. I laid there realizing that I missed a Divine Moment set up just for me, but I was too tired. I was too concerned about being too tired for work today. I was too tired to ask Her what it was She wanted to Whisper to me at 4am.
I have missed more than my share of these Sacred Moments in my life and so I think I would have gotten it by now. But it seems that I still have so much to learn! But what I have learned is that She will Whisper to me again and I hope next time I will find it more important to spend time with the Divine than to worry about my sleep.
But I'm not making any promises....I tend to be a slow learner!
Blessed be!
It's funny, isn't it? We seek and seek and ask for connection and it's really the easiest thing if only we will stop for five minutes and listen. But that seems to be the hardest thing for us to do. You're not alone. Love you.
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