Shadow Visits!

Shadow knocked on the Door to my Heart!

I turned on the TV!
Once Upon a Time
Believe
Revenge

Shadow knocked on the Door to my Brain!

I turned on music!
Washed my face
Brushed my teeth
Put on my PJs
Climbed under the covers

Shadow knocked on the Door of my Dreams!
Bathroom
Balcony
Back to bed

Shadow knocked on the Door of my Awakening!
Morning News on
Shower
Make up
Hair done
Breakfast
Work

Shadow stopped knocking

Today as I took my morning walk in the Forest and to the Lake, Shadow slipped into my Mind and Heart as I was no where to be distracted from Her Knocking. She did not wait for me to invite her in!

Shadow said, "Good morning my sweet Goddess. Did you not hear my knocking this week? Did you choose to ignore me? Were you afraid of what I would be asking you to look at; to visit with; to say good bye to? Did you not hear my knocking this week?"

I kept walking and looked back over my week. Did not I not hear Her knocking? I realized I was having a great week and so maybe I didn't want to have Shadow visit me.

Shadow said, "I have come to say Good bye! I have come to say I am the last of the Shadows. I have come to release you from looking behind you and wondering when the next Shadow would come for a visit. You my dear have visited with, made peace with and dismissed all the Shadows that dwelt within you.  That is the reason you have felt such peace lately. I am the last Shadow to visit you."

Shadow said, "You no longer have visits from Shame, Confusion, Regret and Anger. You no longer have visits from the Embarrassment of your choices. You no longer sit with the Shadow of Failed Motherhood, Failed Wife, Failed Daughter. You have said good bye to the 'Failed' and 'not enough' Shadows that plagued you for so long. You have dismissed "my body is not perfect, my brain not smart and my health questionable' Shadows."

Shadow said, "In doing so, you understand that you do not 'need' someone to save you from the sinful nature you were born with because you were not born 'sinful'. You have embraced the understanding that you are a goddess with the ability to heal, teach, love, be passionate, conquer, travel, dream, be alone, and so forth and so on. You have embraced who you are, what you need and don't need. You are now able to not take responsibility for  another's journey but are able to walk with them when invited and leave the journey when it is time.

"And so," said Shadow "I take my leave. I am the Shadow that sent all the Shadows to you. I am the Shadow of the Light and Love; of Acceptance and Embracing; of the Moon, the Sun, the Stars, the Grasses, the animals and the very Air that you breathe. For you see, my dear goddess, Shadows are not dark and monstrous. You made them to be because that was familiar. Shadows are always there to help you make sense of that which makes no sense. You have done the work and you have released your own Self by listening to Your Own Voice."

I was at the Lake by this time, and stopped to build an altar of stones. It is freeing to know I have done what I need to do to no longer have to reside in that place of Shadow work. I am now free to use the passion and the knowledge learned from those visits to be a presence in the world where I am called to be. I can choose what issues are important to me and speak on them. I can choose who is in my life and who is not. I can choose...me, healthy, beautiful, incredible, magickal ME!

And so, I thanked this last Shadow for all She had done in my life. And She Left.

May you be willing to sit with the Shadows and not see them as monsters but as friends who are there to help you become free of them!

Blessed be and much love!